the letter (prompt-02)

digital brush for rounded corners by house of 3

i got a letter the other day from my doctor reminding me that they have not yet received the results of my screening mammogram, and that if i hadn't done so already, to please schedule one. my eyes froze as several lines leaped from the page before me "...please understand that we cannot be responsible for missing a diagnosis of breast cancer..." i'm still getting chills. i need to have this test done of course, and i've just been putting it off. i am afraid. i have been through a heck of a lot of major medical stuff, and i dread even the possibility of having to deal with more anytime soon, so my mind starts running away with crazy ideas. i get so worked up & anxious, and i can't even start considering thoughts of the 'C" word or i'll just freak. i didn't used to be such a worry-wort. i'm hoping my family will go with me so i won't feel as alone or so terrified, and hopefully it really won't be such a big deal. but first, i have to pick up the phone. ...to be continued...